Friday, July 25, 2008

I'M FREAKIN OUT!

I never thought I would be one to panic out being pregnant, but I am suddenly totally freaking out!!! It all started when I held Cade and Emilys new born, Avery a couple of weeks ago. I felt as though I was about to drop her and like I didn't have a clue as how to hold a new born, which is something that I have done so many times. My stomach turns every time I think about being completely responsible for the well being of a child and everything that I will have to do in order to maintain a good and healthy life for it. I always thought that I would be completely prepared to take on parenting, however these last couple of weeks have been somewhat difficult now that all these fears are surfacing. You would think that one of my biggest fears would be Luke and how he'll react around the baby, but that has never crossed my mind, In fact I think he's somewhat more prepared then I am and I know he'll be such an amazing dad and have so much fun with a mini-me/us. I guess only having 9 more weeks would freak most people out so I'm hoping this is pretty normal...someone please tell me it's normal! Anyway, with that being said here are my stats...This is day number 216 and I'm 30 weeks pregnant!I have 64 days or 9 weeks left, and I am 77.1% of the way there. Baby's age since conception is 202 days or 28 weeks.

5 comments:

Eliza said...

I'd probably be more worried if you didn't have any freak-out/fear/doubt moments. :-D But, that being said.. once your little one is actually in your arms something changes and it feels comfortable, normal, easy, etc. I still have a harder time holding somebody else's newborn, I feel like I'll break the baby but with my own I never felt that way. I know you're going to be fantastic!!

Felicia H. said...

I agree with Eliza, there is something about holding YOUR OWN baby, it just feels so right and you feel like you know whats best for the baby more than anyone else. For me the scary part wasn't holding and taking care of Allston it was when someone else was holding him. You will be GREAT I promise.

The Jensens said...

Oh Kim and I no worries about your mothering abilities. Just look at how good you are with my kids. Now, Luke on the other hand.....

Jill said...

I can't say anything about you freaking out being normal, but I am with Amy on this. You have NOTHING to worry about! You are so good with kids and I'm sure it will all come so naturally. You are going to be an amazing mom!

Orgill said...

Dont you remember me telling you ALL about those exact same fears in the break room at SPS? It was all I could think about when I was prego with Kamryn. BUT... Eliza hit it right on the nose! It is so different when you finally get to hold your own, and it feels so natural even from the very first time in the delivery room! So funny how very mother feels the same way. I know that none of this is going to change the way you feel or take away any fears (because I know it didnt for me) but just look forward to when that baby comes and then you will forget all about them!